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[Dec. 27th, 2008|04:20 pm] |
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8K
Yay...
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[Dec. 19th, 2008|04:30 pm] |
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Happy holidays people.
I wish that anyone that reads this is blessed with a joyful new year.
Meanwhile I must return to the fields of green and white. |
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[Dec. 12th, 2008|08:31 pm] |
Story = 6.7k words so far.
Yay! It’s getting bigger!
One on the things I hope my future girlfriend never says to my face.
My teeth are doing funny things.
Face tingly sometimes.
Not from the ibuprofen.
Oh joy.
Happy holidays people.
4 days till 21...
This song gets me pumped
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyW6_kJmCKg&feature=related |
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[Dec. 5th, 2008|09:13 pm] |
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I survived the surgery yesterday. Now I just gota eat very slowly, take my meds and drink a lot of fluids for the next few weeks while the blood clots slowly fill the holes in my gums… Joy. On another note I think I popped a stitch open already. I don’t know for sure because I can’t see it… Yay…
Writing is going well 5.4k words so far. Going to try to push for some more when I get my mind back into place. I have too bring up my word count per week a bit. But I’ll take what I can get I guess.
I’m ok for now. My face isn’t infected as far as I know. Let’s hope it stays that way. Now off I go into the great beyond and rock out to some tunes and try to bring the word count up a bit. Later all. |
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[Nov. 28th, 2008|10:29 pm] |
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My newest story 3.6k words and rolling. Not by much but still rolling. Still have many more donamos to set up before I can pull out a combination punch and put this story to bed.
Teeth are ok. The day that I sleep under the purple clouds of painkillers is approaching quickly. And then I’ll have 4 big holes in my face where my wisdom teeth were. Oh joy.
Drawing training is going good. I’m getting a lot of good resource material online for autonomy and that (Yay you tube, Google images and all the online galleries I normally lurk). Only problem is that I can’t really enjoy some things anymore. Like I used to be amassed when I see some of my favorite artists post something funny… But ever sense I’ve been learning how to draw. My data miner side goes right into high gear and disassembles the picture in front of my very eyes. It’s good when you want to learn how something is made. Bad when your looking at a cover of a magazine at the checkout line and not paying attention to anything else.
I’m messed up… HA! |
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| tooth>internet |
[Nov. 21st, 2008|11:02 pm] |
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Same old same old. I say. I did some tax prep work and made some progress in the new story of mine. At the 3k word mark and things are going well. The date for the surgery is coming up fast. Lets hope I wake up after it. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2008|08:53 pm] |
Well this week has been a rough ride is some sense. My sis had to miss over a week of school due to being sick. We got her in to see the doctor and it turns out she may have migraines. She needs to take medicine for that. We’ve been trying to get her back to normal, but it’s hard. She’s tired all the time and very sensitive to light. She’s also stressing over the fact she’s missing school… Not a good thing in combination with the migraines.
Writing has been going ok. Working on page 6 of my new story. Hoping to have this a nice long story instead of the shorter stuff I’ve been running out.
Drawing is going nicely… I’m doing research in autonomy anyways. And no I don’t just mean looking at dirty pictures… I do that anyways. Heh heh…
Anywho… I’m outa here. I gota go send some images of suggestive themes into my brain to cheer up the emo kid inside my mind. That and study reflexology stuff. I’ve been concentrating on the business stuff for so long I’ve forgotten the actual technique stuff. Funny thing I’m still not done… Ha!
…Better days please be ahead… |
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[Nov. 7th, 2008|07:55 pm] |
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Nothing relay new to say. Wisdom teeth are being looked at on the 13th. playing rfo. writing a new story, learning to draw. Reflexology studies. bla bla bla. Later all. |
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| Yar! |
[Oct. 31st, 2008|07:43 pm] |
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I'm writing a new story. Struggling with my school work (successfully I might add). And just kicking but in general. I’m playing RFO again on the private server Novus sector since I’m already lvl 48 there. It’s a small server and has some good people there so I’m happy. Anyways I’m just hanging in there till my wisdom teeth are removed (hopefully soon).
Not too much to talk about this week. Later. |
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[Oct. 24th, 2008|10:07 pm] |
Well… time for another journal. In real life news, I’m doing okay if you minus learning how to start a business, tax information, bank/insurance run around work, wisdom teeth problems that will require surgery and the normal depression slowly eating away at me. So yea. I’m not in the best of shape, but I’m still kicking. I’m like the sword fish failing around in the middle of the boat.
“If I’m going down I’m taking one of you fishermen with me!”
I’m continuing my drawing training. Going to get back into writing some stories soon. I think I should try and craft a nice long story. Ease into the writing again all stealth like, yet actually show a bit of effort in the process.
Well, later all. I gota jet. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2008|05:49 pm] |
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Nothing new. learning to draw. Doing reflexology homework/paperwork. I'm debating on making sis2 or not at the moment. It was fine as a single and the true beauty of it was that it did have a cliffhanger at the end. That's it. So I'm kinda in the wind here. I might just run something new. Stay in the now not rolling backwards. Yea. Well, I know I'm not going to get to much of any comments or responses here anyways. So yea.
Later... |
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| Uphill battle... |
[Oct. 3rd, 2008|11:10 pm] |
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SiS2 is underway... very slowly. I've been working on my reflexology stuff and learning to draw is keeping me busy. I figure if I can branch out my talents further I might be able to attract a border audience then the ones I've been getting. The people I HAVE been getting to reed my stories are superb. But if I'm ever going to get feedback and turn my writing into something more then just the adult stories I've been making. I'll need a bigger network. And thus, I shall forge onward once again into the realms unknown to I. It will be another long and slow uphill climb. But... I'm alone anyways... So it doesn't really mater how hard the battle is... I still WANT to fight it.
No promises on the next release date of my written project people. Reflexology studying comes first. |
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| Light em up peeps |
[Sep. 26th, 2008|07:59 pm] |
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Well… I got good news peeps. I’ve started my reflexology training and it’s going well. I also got SoCP story done! I will be posting and linking it to a picture done my the artist that inspired the story soon. I’ll most likely be uploading it to all 3 sectors (FA/DA/YS) tomorrow evening when I get some spare time on my hands.
For my next project… I’m thinking it’s time to start the first draft of SiS2. I did leave one hell of a cliff-hanger on the first one. So why not dig the hole deeper. Lets see how much I can blur the line of fantasy and reality… and how many minds I can warp in the process.
As for my little accident with an axe and my leg. The scab is going away and I should be able to get the stitches removed on Sunday or at the latest Monday. So yea all is well… I guess.
So yea. That’s it I guess. I’ll be posting my short story SoCP tomorrow evening and start working on SiS2. Happy happy…
Signed
A twisted heart unclaimed
Hnix Turnwar |
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[Sep. 18th, 2008|08:43 pm] |
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Well… I got good news and bad news… Good news is I got a new story done and I’ll be posting it soon. Bad news is I hit myself with an axe. I was cutting some branches into pieces and amazingly I cut through an inch thick branch and into my leg. It’s not bad, it bounced off thanks to the femur bone. The cut is an inch below the knee and has 4 stitches… and a bruise with a nice welt under it. The bone is fine though. But I’ll be limiting my movement for the next 3-5 days. Stitches come off in 7-10. I got off lucky…
So yea… I’ll be laying low for a while. Doing some reading and possibly some writing in the next few days… it's not like I have a choice… |
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[Sep. 12th, 2008|08:09 pm] |
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SoCP (gift): Editing = fun… (sarcasm intended)
Dipping into: second draft done
Cornered: Rough draft done
SiS2 (Squeaks in silence): Planning done
Blizzard: Planning done
Did some more work on SoCP. It’s almost done I swear. Just got a few more grammar errors to iron out in the next few days then it’s off to into the interwebs it goes. First to a friend, then to DA/FA/YS. It’s another novella, so it’s does have a good length.
I’ll be studding reflexology near the end of the September. Basically it massage therapy for the feet and hands. It uses pressure points to reset the nerves along the body. Anyways it interesting and kinda cool. So here’s hoping all goes well in that venture.
And no. nothing I'll be studding can teach me this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HD1gyfq5nWU
...I already know that heh heh... |
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[Sep. 5th, 2008|09:01 pm] |
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SoCP (gift): Editing = fun… (sarcasm intended)
Dipping into: second draft done
Cornered: Rough draft done
SiS2 (Squeaks in silence): Planning done
Blizzard: Planning done
I’m not going to release SoCP till I have it done. So in other words… It’s getting there but still being mixed around in le old pot that I call a brain. Gota get the words right for this puppy. The first 15 or so pages that I edited like mad are great. The last few of them need a but load of work. But yea. It’s getting there.
On other news I’m a lesbian space pirate that like long walks on the beach and rides a giant flying space shark through the galaxy stealing milk from the milky way. Just thought I’d let you know.
Later all. I must do battle with my creations. Aka editing… Blech…
Hnix Turnwar |
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[Aug. 29th, 2008|10:34 am] |
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SoCP (gift): Final touches
Dipping into: First draft done
Cornered: Rough draft done
SiS2 (Squeaks in silence): Planning done
Blizzard: Planning done
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Based of the view points of this journal
http://avencri.deviantart.com/journal/20200772/
After doing some thinking and not wanting to do more editing on SoCP for a bit longer. I decided to do some digging in the sands of my mind. With the help of a few questions ripped from the journal above (except one word heh heh)
1: Why do you create?
2: What does it mean to you?
3: What do you want to achieve?
4: Are you willing to make some sacrifices for it?
Why do I create… Well there are many reasons why I write. Like how my mind is in a constant flux where I must keep it busy at all times. Even when I’m awake and resting in bed. My mind will create a daydream that I will participate in like some sort of game. Or that I want to share the joy or a story with someone out there. To set off a flair to the word and say I am here… But secretly, there is one answer I hide from even my family. To bleed out the emotions that cloud my mind.
I grew up a loner, an embodiment of apathy. I wasn’t emo or sad. I just didn’t have regular emotions when I was a kid. I knew anger, joy and sadness. But I never let myself or my mind roam inside them for to long. I was picked on a lot in school. I was weak in body but strong in heart. I’m actually kinda thankful that I was treated the way I was back then… Not because I deserved it or anything… But rather, I’m stronger because of it. I was so messed up in the head I actually gained the ability to block pain and emotion at a young age. It came in handy at school and home sadly…
But as time passed by puberty kicked in… and the spark plug died. In other words… Grade 12 prom, no girlfriend, no date, didn’t care, I worked that night in a grocery store. I was too busy looking for the answer for the next test in books then to notice the girls looking at me… I still have that problem to this day. I just can’t tell if a girl is interested in me. I can see it a mile away if a girl is hitting on someone else. Just not me. Selfless mind syndrome I guess…
Writing is like bleeding for me. A safe way to control my feelings without damaging myself. I don’t actually hurt myself in real life, but bleeding is the only way to describe the feeling I receive when I write. It’s not blissful in the sense of pleasure, but rather peaceful in the sense of silence. My mind slows down and concentrates on the next word, instead of the next page. I write to express the feelings I have and let them out in a safe manner. In other words, My reason to write; I write to bleed.
What does it mean to you… It means a lot. Each piece of writing means something to me. An accomplishment for one. Maybe a new adventure in the form of words and form. But I like to think of my writing as flowers. Planted as a seed, grew under the sun, given life from my breath and placed in my front lawn.
To me, writing is my way of life. A way I can experience kindness and compassion, without being put in harms way. A way to find emotional beauty in this world. To see if it truly exists for a person like me… It’s a lot to put in my writing but ever since I started putting pen to paper back in high school. I kinda depended upon it. Not for the comments other people give me. But rather the work itself. Creating something from myself in such a pure form is invigorating. Expressing ones own desires and fears in the realm of words is both frightening and alluring. It may be hard and even annoying at some parts. But it worth it. The work gives me a reason to live. The comments I receive are just the icing on the cake. Mmmm icing… *writes down dirty thought about icing* heh heh heh… there’s another story idea.
What do you want to achieve… Well. Someday, I hope to hold a novel made from my own words. To be published is every writers dream I think. We all want our words to be read. To be held in the hearts and minds of our readers. I too want to be published. But right now I rather concentrate on getting my skill to an appropriate level before I take the leap of faith. I still have many things to learn about my own style of writing and many short stories to write before I can work on a 50,000+ word novel. Patience is a virtue, but the spell checker on my word processor is a blessing.
But besides a published novel in my hands. I would love to find a few more allies willing to bounce ideas with. To jump on msn, yim, ventrilo or skipe and have a chat. I have a very small artistic network right now and I would like to see it grow a bit larger. Frankly there’s only one person on my msn list that is an artist/writer that I talk too. I bug him/her/it every few days and he/she/it is cool with it… I think… He/she/it hasn’t blocked me yet, so yay for me. (note: I have hidden he/she/it’s identity not because he/she/it said so, I just think it’s funny)
Are you willing to make some sacrifices for it… Well my sanity is playing hop scotch on the edge of a bridge. My social life is non existent. And I don’t have a girl friend so I don’t really leave the house except for exercise, errands or work. But sure, I can sacrifice a bit of my pride for research. Or my time for extensive editing. I’m not too sure what else I can sacrifice. But we will know when the time comes I guess.
Well… That was one hell of a vent… If you read this far. Congrats. And um… my new story should be out soon. I’m hoping for a mid September release. Later all. |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2008|06:49 pm] |
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SoCP (gift): Editing round 3, 15/21
Dipping into: First draft complete
Cornered: Rough draft done
SiS2 (Squeaks in silence): Planning done
Blizzard: Planning done
I’m getting there people. Hopefuly I can complete SoCP by the end of the month… If I’m lucky. Oh well here’s hoping. “Dipping into” is a little project I’ve been working on. An experiment if you will. There’s a contest hopefuly coming up for an online magazine soon and I wanted a head start so… yea. And even if the contest is a no go, I’ll still have a nice story to post. A CLEAN story too. I know that will disappoint some people but let me a sure you all. It will have some of my old tricks in there. Just without the erotic situation.
My wisdom tooth is still being a pain. It’s taking is sweet old time popping out and turning chewing into the new Russian roulette of self inflicting punishment. But other then that all is basically well. I’m hopefully going to be taking my coarse for reflexology in the next coming months, so I’m happy. It will be nice to have that under my belt.
All in all I’m doing well. I could use a few more contacts to bounce ideas back and forth but I’m doing fine. I’ll talk to you all later. |
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[Aug. 16th, 2008|06:47 pm] |
SoCP (gift): Editing round 3, 6/21
Dipping into: Writing, 1/?
Cornered: Rough draft done
SiS2 (Squeaks in silence): Planning done
Blizzard: Planning done
Well here’s the low down. I have a wisdom tooth pushing through my gums… So yea, I’m not in the best of moods. I’m surviving without taking medication; thankfully I’m a tough cookie. Mmmm… cookie. I can’t go to the dentist to get it pulled or even get them to slice the gum to let it out easier. Yea for no coverage.
But on a lighter subject. SoCP is going well. I’m on the third draft now and I’m finding little things to add and take away from it every now and then. I’m still aiming for an end of the month release. But we will see how that pans out. |
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[Aug. 8th, 2008|11:25 am] |
SoCP (gift): editing 5/20
SiS2 (Squeaks in silence): planning stage done
Blizzard: planning stage done
Bla bla bla... RFO POA. Bla bla bla... Typing goes here... Reflexology training next month... Money... Bla bla bla. |
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